Past

People like to say "what's in the past is in the past" but how do we let go?

It is a few days after coming of the year 2024 and I decided it is time that I let go of my past and try to start finally healing. I feel like it's about time I do this because my life just keeps going in circles and I don't want that anymore. But it's so hard! When you drag your emotional baggage for as long as I do you can start feeling like letting go of all that means giving up your identity. Like you don't know who you are anymore apart from all that heavy stuff. Like you cannot say anything else about yourself but "I have depression and anxiety". And that's sad... And I don't want to feel that anymore. I finally have opportunities that I'd like to go through and actually do something scary for a change. And I feel like the time is now! 
My self development journey, just begins. Which doesn't mean I won't need this "journal" anymore. It might get hard along the way and I might feel miserable and maybe even worse when I finally start addressing all of my issues but I need to stay strong. I'm doing this for myself after all. And that should be my biggest motivation.

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