Lean on
When you say you have a best friend it doesn't automatically mean that you are also a best friend of this person. Best friend should be someone who you can lean on and count on in all of the life's hardships and unexpected situations. Well today I found out that I am not a best friend of my best friend. Up until now I thought that I could no longer count on her only in household things and her "promises" but today proved me wrong. How stupid can I be? It isn't funny anymore how I put everyone and everything first even if I am all but crumbling holding on for dear life but the one person I need to be here for me only takes advantage of me... When you are stranded somewhere you expect help from AT LEAST your best friend because if the roles were reversed you know you would bend over backwards for this person... How much it hurts to know that they can basically toss you aside and tell you to deal with it, how much it hurts when they tell you they'll be there for...